i changed my phone.... lol. long ago.. to samsung omnia. so much better than the iphone. much much much better. heehee. the iphone got no radio and no spreadsheet and stuff. whateva. iphone=no gprs/wifi=no fun.

so much simpler phone than it. lol. my dad got it and he is so freakin proud of it. lol. then... inside is like empty shell. hahahahahaha. iphone craze. those people siao one.. news and internet shouting out loud and nagging people of the lousy iphone. ... still.... the world is stubborn. they just want the phone because their friends have it. or... it's the new thing in town. lol. crappy. they just love to queue and join in the crowd not wanting to lose out...

hahahahaha. get lost... CHINA PHONE!!! i kept it away. for god's sake. that lousy phone... but... i thing that china phone is much better than iphone. got 100++ games, even though they are like those gameboy colour games. and radio, tv... everything... iphone is empty... empty shell..

randon pic.. of jia ying. no, is soh-ying..  buying her canned stuff at sheng siong. ah-soh hor? still take basket.

yuduan at pet shop before erp. her super chio face and that black dog. hahahaha. that dog is super heavy. i will buy that dog if i want to train my arm muscles. and carry it everyday. heehee. but better than girlgirl lor. girlgirl is like bag of bones, despite her eating alot. lol. that fat dog is so nice to hug!!! fats...fats and fats!!! fat dogs are great to hug.

don't praise other's dog too much.. girlgirl cute rite? lol. i miss her alot nowadays. when i am in school maybe because of the time i spent in school. from 7am to like 9pm.. lol.

cute!!! she got plenty of hair on her face!!! hahahahaha. i love it!!!

 

The way she pees. she kinda know it's shameful to pee and shit in public. she always look around when she pees and shit.

 

playing!!! want me to sayang her tummy lor. wa lao...

 

umbrella day!!! it's raining on sat and every brought their giant umbrellas to school. and worst. open all of them to dry.

heehee. guess who? CS and CL. k-po paparazzi in school. that spells danger!!!

hee.

wkend. olympics. hw. and sleep.

discussed with duan abt many many stuff sort of.

heehee. lol. we are both angry with the same person. lol. shitty. hahaha

and discussed bout O levels. omg. plenty to do after O levels. so much.

beach. food. catching up. sewing. shopping. quality time with girlgirl. workout. music. movies. comics!!! and everything nice. may be making a class album for memory keepsake too. or the whole of my sec school life. heehee. the list never ends. beach. most important!!! to slack for days by the beach and practically do nothing but sleep there and tan. wish to meet hot guys too. lol. hahahah. topless hot beach hotties.hahaaha. still, prefer nightlife guys then to beach boys. they are wild and i love it.

and... jerome( is it spelled this way?), aka yuduan's lover, became me and carol's bro and sis. bro for carol, sis for me. hahahaha. lol. he so cute omg. yuduan just say he is shy in front of us and don't dare to say vulgarities and sick stuff. lol. but, he act cute. lol. pathetic small boy. hahaaha.

and... two more weeks to prelims. well.. i've done nth. i drop admath and lit by myself. admath, too late to pick up now, unless i sleep 1 hr per day. lit, i can't get a shit. i don't feel a shit for characters. nth. what do they ask for? read this passage. how do you feel? how do i feel?  nothing. siao. i don't even know or sees the people is passage before. how do i know.

and my english sucks. i feel feelings, let alone describe feelings.

science is better. what is moment? and you give a one mark answer. one line. so easy. compare to two page essay, only 25 marks. shit them.

English.

Math.

Chemistry.

Biology.

Humanities.

Physics.

Chinese.

Tht's it!!!

I've had enough!!!!!

eh.. also. i've got a new phone. broke free from china phone. lol. samsung i900. i love you!!!

Nice weather...rain and low temp!!

Watch the video. pls watch, and you will know how cruel every body is this world is. well, those carnivores. well, most of us are. killing animals for the sake of having good and delicious food. i always think that eating meat is not cruel. as those animals are kept and killed for the sake food, and not those those that are hunted down. well, they are born to be eaten and killed?  that's what i think. and i love chicken meat. thinking of it after watching that video just makes me feel guilty. pork, and beef, i seldom eat them. beef don't come easy for me, my mum hates them and never cooks beef. 

those animals are cruelly treated, stepped on, beaten, thrown and not given good care. their eyes are swollen and infected and not one takes good care of them. ewww. and they are killed alive, wide eyed and helplessly look at someone trying to kill them. ewww.

heard of stories from my mum as she used to live in a kampong. she witness how cows and lamb actually shed tears before they die, knowing that they will be killed. and cows knew that they will be sent to be killed, they knelt on the floor refusing to move and looked as've they are begging people not kill them.

sobs.. sobs.ss. ok, i not going for a switch for vegan, or vegetarian ok? my parents are cruel people that consumes meat. and that i will just try to avoid, avoid and avoid. i hate pork, the taste and feel of it. that's improvement for me. and that my mum prefer stir-fired vege that to 大鱼大肉..

bloody pigs and chicken hung upside down and slaughtered, and their cries are ignored.

Link to the video

Very old pics. From sisters/sushi day. lol.

lame la.

Soh ying and soh ang. the very popular pairs of aunties/ah-soh in town. we got our names when we are visiting the supermarket to get our materials. and both of us happen to have long ah-soh wallet. soh and and ying then went to the hawker centre to gossip while have cheng teng and bobo chacha.

Lame la. lol.

 

cutest sushi!!

 

wo.... wooo.... delicious.

 

 

that big lump of rice ball is made by the popular ah-soh... soh ang... me!!!!

ending.... the beautiful picture of my darling girlgirl.

lol...

this is not the end...

unhappy happenings. not everything as expected. nothing is perfect. i am no longer who the carefree person i used to be. to be burdened by guilt and those fucking moods. those that makes me cry day and night, to think of it. falling sick... i love it. to sleep for days and not studying. i am hopeless. how i wish to forget bout it. how rotten i am. how mean and evil i get. everyone's is a faker.

i am giving up on my studies. or it seems to be... or it's just the flu. the stupid flu virus which made me lie there for days and not be able to concentrate. maybe i should just give up, that will lighten my burden. my life, is going the wrong way. and there is no junction, to choose my path again, there is no u-turn in life. see my as a cheap whore, fucking those old man, conning them of their CPF, leave them to die. those old man. irks me. chinatown a plenty. some, can't even walk, so weak, still yearns for sex when they can't erect. use vigra, dies of heart failure.

man... men.... those old ah-pehs... there is one at home... my home... claims  that he is so good. took care of everything, but i don't seem so. he claims that he is so unlike those. but he is just like those. he claims that he gives me everything in life. but, i don't think so. fatherly love. is there any? none. there used to be. or, just that i am too young and dumb to think that that is fatherly love. i receive none... none!!! i give up, seeing him irks me. i won't give a shit about him, that is nothing that i care for him. well... does he cares in the first place? my results. my life. my everything.

when my results sucks, he blames me. well.. why me? he did not even take care of my results and make sure that i do well. just comment and say,"must study hard arh?" well.. what's the point of that . he always comment bullshit and doesn't do anything.

i will hate that guy for life. and he annoys me like the people i hate in my life. according to my mum, he doesn't even give provide me with anything until i was 10. he was broke, kept his own money for beer. my mum, gave me all my necessities.  even my mum's friend buy me things like panties and plenty of clothes. when i mum just married to him, he didn't give my mum any money for food and stuff. until my grandma urge my mum to get it from him. what kind of husband is he?

he only knows how to enjoy life when he don't even have that much money. he could spent hundreds and thousands of dollars on fishing. and fishingtrips. can't he save it?

My fucking dad.

This will be another emo post so don't read. it's just for my typing leisure.

i brought home a cat from simin.

i love the cat. charrmmy.

love it. and yearn for a cat.

my dad just happen to hate cats like hell; unlike other times when  i brought home animals. he threaten to punch me. wanted to take all my money. FUCKER!!! either the stays or...

pets, are my life. i don't intend to study. to invest my life in pets stuff, and live with it. that will paint a beautiful picture of my life. So wonderful and beautiful, lead a simple life. marry a wonderful guy... and everything will paint a beautiful picture.

but my fucking parents obstructs everything. stop me from being a vet. say that hobbies don't earn much. say that animals are just animals. unlike humans. i love pets to death. pls. they are my life, once they enter my life, they will be there forever...

they will stay till they die.

no one, not anyone... i will allow them to take away anything from my life. once something has entered my life, i will never let it go... not one....

he wants to throw charmmy out. if not, all animals will have to go. if they go... obviously, i don't find the point to go home anymore. the fucking home, which fucking people lives in. the home, which people love me in the wrong way. in fact, i don't feel the love when they claimed that they "loved" me. well...

he has no control pf my life... i am not a robot. i am somebody with brains and think on their own. i am a living person who loves freedom. wants to control me? no way....

either the animals stay or...

he hate cats. he had bad experience with cats. that they bring about fleas and the whole office got fleas. he thinks that those fleas occurs in only cats... wrong. dogs too. and cats if you give them prevention like dogs, they won't have fleas. so what's the difference.

and cats, they are easily taken care of. so easy. just cut nail, feed them and shower yr love. nothing will go wrong.

and i am someone responsible, giving up is not a choice.