Very old pics. From sisters/sushi day. lol.

lame la.

Soh ying and soh ang. the very popular pairs of aunties/ah-soh in town. we got our names when we are visiting the supermarket to get our materials. and both of us happen to have long ah-soh wallet. soh and and ying then went to the hawker centre to gossip while have cheng teng and bobo chacha.

Lame la. lol.

 

cutest sushi!!

 

wo.... wooo.... delicious.

 

 

that big lump of rice ball is made by the popular ah-soh... soh ang... me!!!!

ending.... the beautiful picture of my darling girlgirl.

lol...

this is not the end...

unhappy happenings. not everything as expected. nothing is perfect. i am no longer who the carefree person i used to be. to be burdened by guilt and those fucking moods. those that makes me cry day and night, to think of it. falling sick... i love it. to sleep for days and not studying. i am hopeless. how i wish to forget bout it. how rotten i am. how mean and evil i get. everyone's is a faker.

i am giving up on my studies. or it seems to be... or it's just the flu. the stupid flu virus which made me lie there for days and not be able to concentrate. maybe i should just give up, that will lighten my burden. my life, is going the wrong way. and there is no junction, to choose my path again, there is no u-turn in life. see my as a cheap whore, fucking those old man, conning them of their CPF, leave them to die. those old man. irks me. chinatown a plenty. some, can't even walk, so weak, still yearns for sex when they can't erect. use vigra, dies of heart failure.

man... men.... those old ah-pehs... there is one at home... my home... claims  that he is so good. took care of everything, but i don't seem so. he claims that he is so unlike those. but he is just like those. he claims that he gives me everything in life. but, i don't think so. fatherly love. is there any? none. there used to be. or, just that i am too young and dumb to think that that is fatherly love. i receive none... none!!! i give up, seeing him irks me. i won't give a shit about him, that is nothing that i care for him. well... does he cares in the first place? my results. my life. my everything.

when my results sucks, he blames me. well.. why me? he did not even take care of my results and make sure that i do well. just comment and say,"must study hard arh?" well.. what's the point of that . he always comment bullshit and doesn't do anything.

i will hate that guy for life. and he annoys me like the people i hate in my life. according to my mum, he doesn't even give provide me with anything until i was 10. he was broke, kept his own money for beer. my mum, gave me all my necessities.  even my mum's friend buy me things like panties and plenty of clothes. when i mum just married to him, he didn't give my mum any money for food and stuff. until my grandma urge my mum to get it from him. what kind of husband is he?

he only knows how to enjoy life when he don't even have that much money. he could spent hundreds and thousands of dollars on fishing. and fishingtrips. can't he save it?