Love 4e1!!

4e1 christmas party!!

Totally enjoyable.. It’s hard to believe we were actually separated from each other, FOR MORE THAN A YEAR!!

Thinking bout this just made me feels sad. Though we didnt change much, there is still some minor changes here and there. E.g. Jia Ying is not so vulgar anymore.. Sobs..

We are still childish, but.. We seems to go through more things, our lives seems to complicate, we talk without that line…

Isn’t this good? There’s no misunderstanding.. We are so straightforward and no longer offend each other. We know each other well….

We dont have to fake.. We just ourselves. We are 4e1:)

Drunk at home on Christmas Eve

Well, i am drunk. Just ignore the shit on this post. HAHAHA.

I am sad, sort of…

Cause my brother died on 24 dec… His heartbeat… His life ends.. Like the countdown for christmas.

And, we no longer celebrate christmas. How great?

I would miss him… Why must he… Die on this day!?!?!!

Every christmas, it’s hard, not to think of him.

I would miss him, like crazy. His is someone i always wanted, but yet i didnt appreciated? I want him, since i was born. All i wanted was a brother that could take care of me? But yet, i didnt know, i didnt love, i didnt knowledge who he is…

That gave me a everlasting regret. Really…

Why? Why must i do that?

Why must he die so early? He is the link, but when he dies, everything’s gone. Why? Why!?!?!?

He is a good person… Someone who loved me, knew who i am… Knew that i actually like dogs, made me liked dogs. Made me love cycling… Is that part of our genes? Our code? Our similarity that runs in our blood?

But now.. Everything's lost!!! Nothing is left!!!

U cant possiblilty bring back the dead.

He is cool. He has tatoos, he has nipple rings, he cycles, he rocks!!!!

He is my brother….. Rite?

But, he is no longer there. It took me too long.

Our relationship is not exactly simple. Right? Complicated family… Nothing’s normal for us.

I miss him.. What if i go visit him now? What will i say? What will he say? Will he hate me? What would he tell me? What does he feels bout me? Does he think i am a daughter of a bitch?

He witness too much. He blamed dad, partially? Or what? Does he understand?

Drunk…

PREVIEW OF CHRISTMAS

Yeap.. I am actually blogging again!! Muahahahahaah!!

Crazy bitch’s talking, ranting, cursing.

Couple’s Retreat!!! IS NICCEEE!!!

Please watch this with yr partners.

Well, sad singles like me will watch with other bitches. HHAAHA.

Went in to burberry before the movie, my choice no. 2 wallet, is damn ugly, unlike how it look like on the web. It’s like glossy and all that shit. GRRR… Shall get their watch instead huh?

 

UGLY… Cause of the patent material.. GRRR.

This is nice!! I love leather!! $680:(

Black damn nice!!

Hmm… Christmas’s approaching. HAHAHA. So.. As friends, you guys/ girls can actually share and buy me the watch and… HAHAHA

GIVE IT TO ME!!!

I will be damn touched!! haha. And love u guys to the max!!!

Buy this!!! $448 only!! U damn rich rite? Buy for me!! MUAHAHAAHA

This is like, $1373!?!?!? HAHA. DREAM WATCH!!

I rmb how how used to hate watches? like it gave me rash at the wrist and all that shit. But i love them now!! LOL. HAHA. Nids to love my wrist. HAHA.

And i got this new tattoo yesterday!!! NEAR WCP!!

People might think i am crazy, going West Coast Park so frequently.. Cause i am trying to practice!! LOL.

I did forward crossover!!! :)::):):):):):)

It’s like.. damn shiok? get the momentum and yes!! I did crossover. But only to the right.

And!!!

Let’s end this with some emo stuff.. HAHA.

*START OF EMO TOPIC*

Every Christmas, maybe, like since 2004? I would feel sad as Christmas approaches? Why? It’s been over for so long? Like 5 years? Like, that part of the memory is always so vivid, yet, it’s stuck in there. And there seems to be a clock, that controls my emotions to feel sad at this period of the year?

I am not thinking bout it. I don’t see the images, i didn’t think of it. But the sadness is there…

I do feel lonely, sometimes.. I’ve got friends and families, and hanging out with them? But, it just feel empty, I don’t know what i want, i don’t know what to do.

So this is life huh? The purpose of life? The creation of life? So that aimless people like me, will just live, shit, work, play..

I feel like i am getting rebellious, sort of? Though i am way past that age and phase.. Shit, what’s happening to me?

*END OF EMO TOPIC*

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