14 is sort of a bad day. i may have pms... zzz. lol. that happens to bitch and not bastards. lol.. and today was a bad bad day. my last bracket came off. while i was eating cold fries during chemistry. this is like. ... i have no idea how to put it in words about how i feel today. it's kinda confusing and full of uncertainty. one day, i could feel loved but not the next. or is it just one of the unlucky days of my life. i am paranoia and i hope that i am really paranoid about what people think of me and not that what i decipher from those facial expression may just be true. i feel like an outcast, a person that don't have a place in this world. there is no place that belongs to me or i belonged to. i just feel this way today and that i don't belong. i will just wait and see. and feeling depressed, eg. not being able to laugh out loud. or is it a coincidence that no one said any good jokes. feeling bad isn't part of me. feeling good and laughing out loud is what i want. duh. i don't like my life for day 14/1/08

bastards, bitch, fuckers and all people. just let me say something bad. i have not done it in a long while. mother fucking idiots.