dotty. kinda lol. you know? that kind of feeling. when you have sth that needs to accomplished but you just simply can't pick it up and do. but frustrated with myself for not doing it at the end of the day. sadly two nights ago i was a despo in chinese hw. i did two long and nice essay till 2am. crazy? but that's the day that i felt that sth has been done. nice and sweet feeling. and that sudden force that push me throughout writing the whole hw, that force that give me ideas.

and that's sth that push me through my exams too. so that i study through the night and make me pass exams. all gone-----> back to slacker's mood. blogging about how bad i feel abt not doing my stuff. even my favourite stuff like crafts. i am almost hopeless.

living with my two persismistic parents. they see the failing one result which i simoply give up and not those i loved and make it to an A. they rather sulk about those results than those i made it to the As. they are so crazy. but i won't sulk, i just let it be history. deeeeeeee. the result given that day, but is history the next. so why think or brood about it. simply forget and not think. too much thinking kills the brain cells.

i've got too much things to actually do. and not started on my revision. except for chemistry which i've given up on the first chapter. i hate this. crazy system of my brain structure.

anyway, i've made something yesterday. i made book. which i sew at the you-know-what, i donoe how to explain. and made it into a lol. book. colourful pages. the proccess was cool, searching for a nail and hammerring it to make a hole into the pages. sewing is better that gluing the pages. which is so messy and gross.