Friends give you laughter, memories..
As well as affecting yr emotions, controlling yr emotions.
I am obviously not caring about my studies anymore, i get diploma with a pass… I CLAP MY HANDS AND SHOUT, “Finally!!!”.
But why am i feeling so stressed up? Even my freaking menstrual cycles are giving me all kinds of symptoms of being stressed!
I am stress, for… Nth! I have no idea what is it.
Well, i might be losing a friend. I am supposed to feel sad, go cry, kill myself and all that shit. But, i still feel nth! Like a living zombie, so many things left undone, walking, living like someone without life.
What is it that i really want to do? My craft business?
That’s maybe at the top. But, all this shit, all this sch shit. All this problems. I cant possibly dump them and create sth for myself rite?
I nid to solve these problems. But, what are these problems?
I cant see it, don’t know anything, don’t know the source of the problem. How to i go about solving it?
And, my dad is talking to me again. My mum, is talking to much to me. They are suspecting that i am smoking.. No matter wat i say, though they seems to believe that i dont smoke… But still, they keep asking me not to smoke? WTF? (Well, i am smoking, but trying to keep it from them).
They are talking/ talking too much to me. Totally hilarious.
Like trying to educate/ counsel me. And all that stuff. Give me WRONG real life examples. And even ask me to encourage someone that i dun really hang out with to quit smoking. How cute rite?
Ask me(smoker) to ask the other guy to quit smoking. OMG.
I rather that they ignore me. Give me space for a while, something that i really need now. So, that i might think better. Not be rash.
Rite? Wrong?
Wateva.
Btw!!!! I bought a new 2010 planner!! It’s weird for me to buy planners since i am making them. But!! It’s really nice and the format of the pages are totally my style!! And it look vintage. AND!!! WITH THE LITTLE PRINCE’S GRAPHICS!! Don’t ask me why i like him. But he is just so innocent and pure:)
That’s advantage of being a kid, child.
I choose that planner for so long!! It’s from art friend, btw. I was actually squatting down, deciding, looking at it. Then, being overly indecisive, my legs grew tired from squatting that i knelt down on the floor. HAHAHA!!!
Can i be less in decisive?
Yesterday…
I chose between writing my plans on cue cards.. Choosing the sizes for damn freaking long!! Ended up with the large one, decide to place it all on a huge art canvas at the end of the year. :)
But ended up, thinking of adding them into a album… (go choose album).. For god knows how long!! Wat size? Brand? Colour? Price? Done! The black one!
But…. I saw small notebooks, mini kind. Decide to buy a set of 12 and decorate the cover. didn’t really like it, stick to cue cards.
Then… i saw those ZIP diskette boxes!! Like kinda thick and nice:) Decide to add cards into the ZIP boxes!! A box for a mth!!! Yeah! :):)
I spent like almost 1.5 hrs on choosing the cue cards. WTF!!!
Then dump it, and went with the ZIP box idea.
I was practically walking up and down the aisle, whether to use cue cards or ZIP boxes. Hmmm.. Then.. Waste much time. Arrived around 1, left bookshop at 3 just to choose the materials+ ideas for 2010 planners.
But… End up hor… I dump all that for a planner:) My The Little Prince planner:) LOL!!
OMG. I shld be more decisive rite?
I think i might be going crazy. But alot of people say.. I alrd am!!! WTF!!!