23.9.08

My buys!!! Went out yesterday after bio exam. lol.

And seems to have a hangover from yesterday. lol. the shopping craze. went to central @ clarke quay. boring. i can say. all the advertisements and stuff. but the clothes and dresses turn out to be so limited and bo liao. like, you can get it at one tenth of the price at bugis street. and that those clothes makes people slutty. lol.

then i head to bugis to join jia ying.

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i brought bikini. lol. i know i am fat well.. who cares. and they make me look like i have totally no breast. lol. crap.

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and cosmetics!!! lol.

-Redearth-  Star lights, Winter/autumn collection. in chocolate dream

-Redearth- Liquid foundation

-Silky girl- lip gloss, i hate their products, like overly cheap? how to have quality? and bad colours. lol. but i like the taste of this lip gloss.

-Revlon- Natural Shade type. lol. i need one for casual wear.

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liquid foundation

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the box of starlight collection!!! chio rite?

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in interior. love the design of it, like so flat and nice. lol.

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excited!!1

and me and jiaying went somewhere, lol. hee. hee. getting excited of the thought of it. well, i am gettin naughty. lol. i am a horny whore. no happy is it? lol

crappy me. lol. heeheehee.

honestly, do i look old? huh? am i that old? huh? do i have wrinkles every where? huh? do i look older than my age? i tot i still looked CUTE!!! omg. .. i am a saggy faced bitch with no breast!!!!!

fuck. lol. i tot i still look cute and innocent ok? and people treat me like some old maid dying for sex. lol. crap. do i look THAT OLD?? lol. should barge into a club naked whether they let me in. heehe. "no breast mdm, sooorry.. pls get out. i  apologise for yr urm... small breast"

what's with me and almost no breast. push up dosen't help. just made me look more normal.

saline breast implants. pls donate. thks. i will love you.

big boobies and bikini i would faint in happiness at that look if i had.

21.9.08

Kids sucks, trust me.

lol. like anyone could trust me for that.

well... i used to love kids., like they are so adorable and innocent. but the society has changed so do the kids. people are getting more open and stuff, and kids at younger age knew more things. some, are stuck at their parent's love nest and never gets out.

kids now are so noisy, pampered, childish and some knew more than they should. to an intolerable extend.

i had freaking bad experiences with kids. lol. slimy and sucky and noisy and idiotic kids.

i am a kid too. to people older than me, but i don't care how they treat me or hate me. i just hate kids, people born after 92. in 92, i am one of them. i can't possibly hate myself.

Example 1:

i am with my cousin's kids to malacca. i sort of like them, used to. they are both girls. the younger one is like so mischievous the older one is better much quieter. The older one is about urm... 6? or 5? and guess what she asked? "hey, do you have pubic hair?" urm... that's a weird ques to ask and on the car with my cousin and dad. both who are obviously guys. siao one. i lied and said no. duh... who will say yes in front of guys. and she was like " sure have one la. i will shave all if i had them." lol. she is a freak!!!

hey, kids like her. omg. i can't tolerate. it's like such embarrassing ques. obviously you want want to say it out loud rite? it's embarrassing to keep them (hair) let alone tell the whole world you have them and let the guys start imagining how that place will look like. sure think look like forest, black forest. not the cake. i used to laugh at the cake's name tgt wif my mum. lol. cake vs pubic hair. black forest cake to remind you of pubic hair.

hey, i know you are young. but at least look at the TPO(time, place and occasion) ok?

from that now i know either my aunt's or cousin's wife has foest. who doesn't. but... lol. 

Example 2:

hong kong with the same bunch of people and the younger one. she looks cute. lol. and i held her hand. she was eating some sweet and shove the sweet wrapper in my hands. i was fucking pissed. i said ' 你自己丢!!!' so pampered!!!

like, at least pull me tgt with her to the bin rite?

Example 3:

dunnoe whether its the same trip to malacca, again, with same bunch of people. the younger one was grabbing my attention. and i played with her. guess what? she start pinching me. her finger so small some more, obviously pain la. as you know, in physics, pressure=force/area. small area larger force!!! get it!!! and i pinched her back. and start hitting her hand. she think it was fun despite the pain. you should see my arms muscles. i could carry heavy things. she is in pain and refuse to leave me alone. and i continued. hahahhaha. then she went to get a wet tissue to soothe her red hand. hahahaha. then my cousin was like "why you so stupid, let her hit you?" well. she thinks she is strong and have high tolerance and refuse to cry. lol.

Example 4:

my cousin from maternal side. he was so freaking gross. he stuck his hand in his shirt, dig and smell that finger. the smelly belly button. but i saw him inserting his hand in the pants too. dunnoe which is which. penis smell or belly button smell. lol. that's gross.

well, you should see it. i almost thought he is masturbating in the middle of the living room. with like 7 people around. but he doesn't have that face and he is well, abit too young maybe in a few years. and why would people want to smell their hand after masturbation?

Example 5:

this is every where.. kids wailing and crying. for no apparent reason.

my neighbor, below me. her grand child cry like siao. every night even midnight. she is like 1 or 2. and her mum is a teacher, pregnant again. omg....

kids look cute and nice but no when they cry.

Example 6:

Kids are getting mature.. not that word. well, they know more than they should. but their body is not even developed for that info. maybe like, pretend? and the way they insult each other using sexual organs is so wrong. and pathetic. it's innocent but... mature in the childish way, let's say it.

at the bus stop, a few primary school kids, from my old pri school. a boy was holding an umbrella and pointed it to a girl's breast. " i poke yr nene that you know!!!" that's pathetic rite?

want to be crude, but in the right way pls?

at least say,' dont make me shove this into yr vagina'

Conclusion:

i really hate kids. i might have mine, but they won't have an easy life. they won't be those punks and mature in the childish way people.

i am already starting to get pre- pregnancy depression. thinking about how my kids will turn out and how should i educated them even when i am like a virgin?

that's weird. i am still a kid and hate kids. lol.

17.9.08

Phobia of meatballs. Chinese food kind.

Almost died. and nearly called my doc for emergency.

Just because of a freaking bone ,mini, transparent and so hazardous. At first it got stuck between my last two tooth of my upper jaw. aw...

imagine squeezing something thicker than those gaps in between yr teeth.

and tried to use a tooth pick to remove it. it stayed there.

used my tongue to shift it. and then... it pierce into my gums, between two tooth. ouch!!!!

fucking idiots. they ought to be responsible for the physical and psychological pain.

ouch... and worse... i didn't know why it hurt then and bite.. it went in further. fuck!!

and what? final resort. used my fingers to pluck that fucking bone out. bled like hell. and unsightly, with blood and part of my flesh hanging on that fucking bone. and my mum what still playing and tossing it around with her chopstick. ouch.. you see that flesh there? ouch...

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my dad went away to australia.. suppose to fly off at 8pm but delayed to 12am. hahahaha.

wateva. freedom. even if i reached home late when i go out no one can stop me. hahaha. for 8 days. lol. he shiok la. he got like $500 cash and $250 voucher from the air lines. shiok rite? he brought perfume... again. then took the chance, help me to buy one too,from the airport. hahahaaha. if it was me. $500 mine.. wow...

handbag, cosmetics and clothes. they will be like gone in ten minutes hahahaha.

wow... finally could use that perfume.. heehee... only after 8 days.. australia... without me. hahaha. sobss. i would go crazy shopping and slacking.

then he will touch down after 8 days and fly off the next. stupid. wateva. he go fishing. shit. wateva. so stinky.

he is gone for half a mth. sort of..