so disappointed.

wish that i won't be able to wake up forever. i woke up this morning... so disappointed. the start of a new day. to keep up with the pretence, to be positive, to be happy, to be the ME that i could never be.

wouldn't it be good if i sleep and sleep and never be able to wake up? wouldn't it be good? to be always in the dark world. to be there.. forever, and never see the sun. i knew i wouldn't miss the sun. i knew so well. i would be happier staying in the dark. the vacuum, nothing is there, no gases, no living, nothing.. just nothing. no problems. won't know anything, wouldn't be worried. JUSＴNOTHING.

Nothing...

the empty. how i wish to go there, the empty space with nothing but darkness. won't have to worry about studies, people, myself, my life, money, love, and what to eat next. won't have to worry about anything. just let me go to the world with nothing in it.