i am unsurprisingly not studying.
and i emo-ed. sort of.
hysterically cried, shouted, screamed, whined.
VERYLOUDLY.
i got like very demoralizing grades. typing this... ok, emo mood is back. pls lor. pls...
how bad could i get? not a single 'A' not one. B4 and below. well only one B4 and i failed 3 subjects. freaking hell!!!
gd reason to cry.. no idea why. i usually don't cry.. but, just cried today. i cried because of my results. urm.. yes. i don't want to be like this,i don't want to feel stupid.
and shocking discovery!!! the course i like: veterinary technology. the course's opportunities in future, is so.. my type. YES!!! i want this course!! and the exemption of up to 2 years when getting a degree.
BUT!!! the admission to termasek poly is only by DPA. oh, GREAT!! now i really know what is the regret like... not having being involved in a CCA. my one and only course that i really really like. and my studies... don't wish to talk about it... the cut off point is 10 for that course for goodness sake. omg.
now is the time for me to regret and cry. FUCK FUCK FUCK!!!
wtf!!! URGH!!! my knuckles will hurt again!! punching the freaking pillow. no use, still end up hitting the wall, pillow too soft.
i shall go and bang myself against the wall...
alternate choices
- get a course, i like best other than the stupid vet course
- marry a rich guy, let me study overseas. or, give me money and feed me. or, let me take pet's grooming courses.
choice 2 is out. since i am ugly and nobody wants. live my life with choice 1 and live a boring and stupid. just be very sadistic with life.