Blogging time!!!

Wed 21/5/08

cycled with yuduan. and jia ying walked with my dog. my bitch.

hahahahaha. and i realised something, coke is nicest after sports.

Today 22/5/08

school day. school day. tml will be last day of the term, and then... the last term, will be like 4 weeks after. where got time? siao. siao.

chills crawling. no, it's everywhere.

panicked for chemistry practical exam. siao one. i really need to cry bout. it. fuck. it's like the real exam and i cannot do it rite and get the experiment rite. pouring again and again. i need to kill myself, stupid mistakes ended up up faking the points. fuck!!!

tml is parent's meeting session... fuck

pls lor this kind of stupid grade still want to meet. and worse still my parents never understands me, and i don't wish that they do too. my dad obviously don't understand me, he is stupid. the only thing in life i admire about him is that he got a taxi driver license before he got retrenched, just in case. that the only thing. ONLY!!!

he thinks that his daughter is involved in gang and that his daughter hangs out with people who smokes and have sex in public. and he thinks that i am one of them. pls lor, even the most ah beng ahlian friends are like the guai-est of the guai-est, ah lian. fuck. and he don't trust his own daughter. what have i done wrong? what? what huh? well, maybe losing virginity at age 12 will not gain a father's trust. but, i am pure innocent lamb virgin. hahahahaahahahaha. he think  that i play alot, but does he even know what i am doing? he doesn't.

my mum thinks that he knew everything about me, but then... no. i dont' talk to him, don't wish to see him. fuck. he is mad one. like he reach home at 11++ and then wish to take a look at his daughter, open her door when she's sound asleep. and say, ' just want to see you wat!!!!' but pls i don't wish to see him... he is away for a week or more but i dont' even miss him, instead, i love the absence. i love it!!!

i will talk to him. when i need his atm card. when i need money. when i beg for extra pet.

he thinks that going home late is bad. siao. what could i do? have sex from 8-12 midnight? or go drinking. as if i could enter with my stupid looks. he don't allow me to drink outside. but then he always wish to smuggle me into those above 18 and 21 places. like casino or pub. siao. and buy me drinks.

fucking idiot

hahahahahaha. he thinks that  a dog is better than me. well, my dog is. my dog waits for owner to come home then hug. i don't even touch him. just don't feel like. family day, he thinks that i love my family, but no.. i care about myself. how to be independent asap. and break away. i will take degree elsewhere hopefully. and live a happy life there. married and never to come back. i don't find the need of parents, other than the financial part.

my mum thinks he is over sensitive. kinda hate him at time(my mum). a person who is to live with him voluntarily doesn't really like him. let alone someone who is forced to by genetics.