i don't deserve christmas. zzz. i am not in that celebratory mood. dots. my folks don't really do christmas but also keeping me away from christmas. they want to celebrate as a family but how do they celebrate? they celebrate it like any old day of my life. that's stupid as my goody-old-mum do not want to stay at orchard till night. shitty rite? and my dad just refuse to even go to a simple restaurant for dinner, just lame-o stuff.

and i swear i won't celebrate christmas with them any more or even celebrate christmas when i am home with them. they sux. i get all the teary mood when i see people walking about with christmas hats, celebrating and getting high. and envy those whose family celebrate christmas the way christmas should be celebrated. and envy those who walk around rushing and gathering lots of gifts for their loves ones and friends. but i just have to pick up one present for my dad. just dad. and no one else. i have no idea why i have the urgh to celebrate christmas this year, and just happen that i couldn't. my family don't celebrate any thing, any day. even for the simplest chinese new year. they just clean up the house which is not even clean after they cleaned. my christmas is just any lame-o day.

the stupid that don't get to celebrate christmas