days during the holidays are passing fast. i hate it. even when i just lay there doing nothing. it's passing too fast. and i am too slow in reaction. how to react as time passes, and i am hopeless in all the holiday assignments. lol. my dad took sick leave. fake. or real. i don't know. i only know that he spits all day. kapui!!! the loud stupid sound that old men loves to do. and i was woken up by it. that sound is so degrading. i just hope to move out asap. from this degrading hse. and degrading family members. and they always wonder why i don't love them much. lol. the matter is that they make me hate them with all those behaviour. can't they learn?

pretending to be civillised in front of other people. so... lol. i hate this. earn as much money as possible. earn more money. and i am not going to do the study way. i will learn it the hands-on way. taking up a job as long my O's are over. but it is going to be a dream. a dream that i find it hard to come true.

my baby seem to be sick, or wat. i don't know. i want to give him that best care. and he resembles an infant. so cute and young. scratchy. it's sneezing. i hate it. i fear that it might die. and that's the consequences of bringing a pet home. afraid of dying. and lol. this is stupid. my baby's decreased it's appetite. eating eveything except food. biting wood, hay, bedding, and wire. but seldom food. does he hate the food? or just pms. lol. male rabbit pms? puberty... lol. and looking for mate? lol. this is crazy. my bun is cute and neva die. and only will die when i die? ok? make my rabbit promise me that.