new tear 2008... omg..omg.. i hate next year, exams and all that stuff. Busy, and Busier than ever. and my dad's friend giving away schnauzer, which i don't really like(appearance) but hoped for a companion. lol. the stakes are 80-90% lol. and the owner wants me to love the dog.. lol. sure will. i love dogs. animals.

and my dad's the other friend is a pet expert, a vet? lol. working with my dad. and we could call him for emergency. i don't get the hopes too high. but will try to love it, if it really comes home. i love animals!!!! not reptiles or fish, just mammals. reptiles=yikes!!!

my new year wish, a new dog. a new female bun bun.

and grow up to be an expert in animals!!!

Curious incident of the dog in the night-time. dots




found it interesting dots, but not that accurate. lol. struck crazy by lit

i don't deserve christmas. zzz. i am not in that celebratory mood. dots. my folks don't really do christmas but also keeping me away from christmas. they want to celebrate as a family but how do they celebrate? they celebrate it like any old day of my life. that's stupid as my goody-old-mum do not want to stay at orchard till night. shitty rite? and my dad just refuse to even go to a simple restaurant for dinner, just lame-o stuff.

and i swear i won't celebrate christmas with them any more or even celebrate christmas when i am home with them. they sux. i get all the teary mood when i see people walking about with christmas hats, celebrating and getting high. and envy those whose family celebrate christmas the way christmas should be celebrated. and envy those who walk around rushing and gathering lots of gifts for their loves ones and friends. but i just have to pick up one present for my dad. just dad. and no one else. i have no idea why i have the urgh to celebrate christmas this year, and just happen that i couldn't. my family don't celebrate any thing, any day. even for the simplest chinese new year. they just clean up the house which is not even clean after they cleaned. my christmas is just any lame-o day.

the stupid that don't get to celebrate christmas

shitty, i have no idea why i can't upload pics to this boring blog. dots. sickening stuff.

and i am still rushing through. which i don't seem to concentrate. i hate school. and darling bunny getting cuter day by day. can you imagine?

URGH!!! christmas's around and coming. dots. i simply hate christmas. why? christmas's the start of a new year and O's next. hate it.

and i wasted this holiday that seem long but not. not having fun, but wasting all that time for nothing in fact. i shpuld get the job, called time-waster.

went shopping with yeelin, ying ting and kelly. and i brought a 3 inch heels. dots love. it's plain with ribbon on top. i love it plain. to easily go with most of my clothes. heehee. hahaha. and that's not my hard earned money it's my dad!!!

and my dad really went to check for my second rabbit. so cool. but it's so not confirm. but hope it will come home soon. no matter wat. lol . and if there isn't any, i will look for a lop ear. heehees.

it's been so mad!!! my brain is mad. it keep reminding me on the things i nid to buy. always!!! even in my dreams!!! having short dreams about each and every thing that i nid to buy. i dream about my broken hairband, which is not broken in my dreams(one of the things) and darling bunny's girlfriend.(which is also the thing i need to buy) lol. dreamt that my dad brought a similar rabbit as dar home. and dar get so excited over her. lol. and she was brown with dark brown spots. lol. leopard-rabbit? dots.

dar pee just next to his cage. so delibrate. and hate him. his pee is so much more than a hamster. have to spent so much toilet paper to clean up. he ususally get backs to the cage for a pee. dots... and getting cheeky, climbing up the sofa, jumping and scratching the wall. maughty, and not so timid anymore.

it's raining rabbits and mice!!!! wow!!! and a lightning strikes!!!!

it's raining so heavily there's no sun and darkness. yay!! i had to switch on my table lamp. first time. lol... and it's so romantic, the warm light. so sweet and cosy. to feel warm on a rainy day. and the sound of rain hitting on my window, perfect. i love rainy days. and listening to old korean drama ost!!! my room's romantic!!!

kinda obsess with romantic stuff nowadays, and not because i am in love. it's the complex brain structure that cause me to do all the weird stuff. lol. i love to be weird. everybody is weird on their on way. weird. weird.

my dad may be getting a new girl friend. a new girl friend for my rabbit-baby. dots. i hope it come true. dots. and when the girl friend mates with my baby. i will have more darlings!!! and thinking of setting up a rabbit corner. i have a hamster corner where i put all the hamster cage. and will rabbit corner come true? i dunnoe. just hope that there is really a new girl coming home. just hope. dots. love darling baby lots. he is cute and handsome!!! that popular buck rabbit darling baby. lol. love him!!!!

dotty. kinda lol. you know? that kind of feeling. when you have sth that needs to accomplished but you just simply can't pick it up and do. but frustrated with myself for not doing it at the end of the day. sadly two nights ago i was a despo in chinese hw. i did two long and nice essay till 2am. crazy? but that's the day that i felt that sth has been done. nice and sweet feeling. and that sudden force that push me throughout writing the whole hw, that force that give me ideas.

and that's sth that push me through my exams too. so that i study through the night and make me pass exams. all gone-----> back to slacker's mood. blogging about how bad i feel abt not doing my stuff. even my favourite stuff like crafts. i am almost hopeless.

living with my two persismistic parents. they see the failing one result which i simoply give up and not those i loved and make it to an A. they rather sulk about those results than those i made it to the As. they are so crazy. but i won't sulk, i just let it be history. deeeeeeee. the result given that day, but is history the next. so why think or brood about it. simply forget and not think. too much thinking kills the brain cells.

i've got too much things to actually do. and not started on my revision. except for chemistry which i've given up on the first chapter. i hate this. crazy system of my brain structure.

anyway, i've made something yesterday. i made book. which i sew at the you-know-what, i donoe how to explain. and made it into a lol. book. colourful pages. the proccess was cool, searching for a nail and hammerring it to make a hole into the pages. sewing is better that gluing the pages. which is so messy and gross.

the stupid sore throat moood. went to queensway for dinner and brought a shirt-dress which is so common and i don't totally like. i hate myself. getting too tired for all the shopping. lol. i hate myself....

it's like days towards school reopen and it's o'level next yr. 2008's a bad year, unless there is sth that brighten me up. lol. it's crazy. studying year next yr. and i am glad that i've let go lots of major things in my life. lesser thing to brood about. it's relaxing to think over and lessen that burden. it's means more freedom. i could get back on track soon for my stupid studies which i seem to have given up.

i hate myself. i can't make myself study throughout the day. it's so crazy. there's no tension, maybe there is. i am kinda worried about my o'levels. having a dream last night that my friends enters the first class in that JC and i am i the second class. that class, where study isn't a matter and future isn't the thing to think abt. i hate it and would never wish to end up in that fucking class. it's stupid.

i am really sitting on the fence, thinking about which side would i end up. luckily, my dad's expectation isn't that high, as long as i get to ngee ann. it's cool and scary. it's not that easy, with all the 10 pointers snatching my seats. i just hope that there would be one more year. one more year as an extra time for me to polish my studies. i've regreted. i would rather fail and stay back in sec 3e1 next year.

my shopping list:
1.A brush or thick comb
2.Round head brush
3.wheels for my bunny cage
4.bunny toys for his 1st mth.
5.tolietry case
6.bunny hay
7.new book

and gd luck for tan tan, eggy in getting her lion-head rabbit. lol. my rabbit's mad. running out of the cage and exploring my room. at least he is smart in chosing his territory.

sore throat, mild food poisoning. all the disease that infects me. the food poisoning already cause me to eat very little even after recovering. and now wat?　sore throat?

and that fucking drilling noise from dunnoe which apartment is killing me. drill drill and drill. i can't even think or rest. lol. IT"S KILLING ME....

i hope to go out.... lol. but sick!!
BR> and that drilling thing dosen't allow me to rest. and my mum don't care. insist that i wake up. lol. i am sick and she dosen't given the least concern to me. and i have to self medicate myself? and then die of overdose or?

i may not be going malaysia... or wat? lol. heckcare. aftr all this illness, i have no appetite. how to enjoy the good food? lol... rest is all i nid. rest, rest, rest... but the environment dosen't allow me to rest. the drilling noise is drilling into my mind. i hate it.

days during the holidays are passing fast. i hate it. even when i just lay there doing nothing. it's passing too fast. and i am too slow in reaction. how to react as time passes, and i am hopeless in all the holiday assignments. lol. my dad took sick leave. fake. or real. i don't know. i only know that he spits all day. kapui!!! the loud stupid sound that old men loves to do. and i was woken up by it. that sound is so degrading. i just hope to move out asap. from this degrading hse. and degrading family members. and they always wonder why i don't love them much. lol. the matter is that they make me hate them with all those behaviour. can't they learn?

pretending to be civillised in front of other people. so... lol. i hate this. earn as much money as possible. earn more money. and i am not going to do the study way. i will learn it the hands-on way. taking up a job as long my O's are over. but it is going to be a dream. a dream that i find it hard to come true.

my baby seem to be sick, or wat. i don't know. i want to give him that best care. and he resembles an infant. so cute and young. scratchy. it's sneezing. i hate it. i fear that it might die. and that's the consequences of bringing a pet home. afraid of dying. and lol. this is stupid. my baby's decreased it's appetite. eating eveything except food. biting wood, hay, bedding, and wire. but seldom food. does he hate the food? or just pms. lol. male rabbit pms? puberty... lol. and looking for mate? lol. this is crazy. my bun is cute and neva die. and only will die when i die? ok? make my rabbit promise me that.

the so holiday mood. i stress abt nth!!! except for my baby. lol .

getting more emo and alone nowadays.

christmas coming, and scholl's will be starting soon. november just pass like any other school month, it's too FAST!!! it's always too fast, i 've done nothing. not productive. not happy. and studying. but at least i printed out a homework list. and kinda happy that at least 30% is done. lol....

and thinking of christmas wish. i have none. lol. maybe yes. or... i have no idea wat. christmas is gettin boring year by year. it's like any other year.

my christmas wish list.....
1)All my hamsters to be fertile.
2)Complete slim down
3)New camera
4)No rules
5)A pup
6)To be able to wish everyday.

the so holiday mood. i stress abt nth!!! except for my baby. lol .

getting more emo and alone nowadays.

christmas coming, and scholl's will be starting soon. november just pass like any other school month, it's too FAST!!! it's always too fast, i 've done nothing. not productive. not happy. and studying. but at least i printed out a homework list. and kinda happy that at least 30% is done. lol....

and thinking of christmas wish. i have none. lol. maybe yes. or... i have no idea wat. christmas is gettin boring year by year. it's like any other year.

my christmas wish list.....
1)All my hamsters to be fertile.
2)Complete slim down
3)New camera
4)No rules
5)A pup
6)To be able to wish everyday.

hey people!!! it's long time since i update. have to be tour guide for my couson's family, cousin was like weird here. outdated. lol. and he does nth but look at technology, eg. psp and phone. lol. singaporeans are bored of it. and testing the phones, he was so amazed by being able to test phone. lol. and dragging me, thinking that i don't know. this is so lol.

then we went several TOURIST places. and really behaved like tourist. and they act like stupid. maybe overly excited. my mum said they were like kids. the so overly xcited bunch of people. that 5 day trip was tiring people out. my cousin was also overly excited by the facilities of west coast park.

lol. lame people.

and my cousin was violent to my darling baby. hate him. and fed him salty human ground nut. that would kill my bun or make it lose it's precious hair. and i would surely make him pay by putting the hair back one by one.

i am a so singaporean singapore tourist.

i nid to slap blogger. i can't upload pics.