Bastard parents, hypocrite. they just claimed thta they love me. LOVE me, who else love me other than my hamsters or pets? i dun tink so that anyone does.

Class bbq, so much fun but not as fun as last tym. it's just another bbq. a gathering like last everytime. people dun really play now, but just concentrate on the food. the pool's in 1.8-1.4m and Jia Ying almost drowned me. She can't swim, part of my mistake that i brought her towards the deep pool. lame, she just panicked and i almost drown when she tried to push me down and get herself air. i did not drink much water, just struggled. and even when i calmed down, she keep struggling and she just refuse to stand and walk. TIPTOE.. in the confusion of life and death. i struggled and see white and black.

i thought that it's a good thing that i survived. SURVIVED... many people and i thked god for me surviving.. but after i came home. i just feel like mixing detergent in my drink and die. die. i love my friends, but they are just like a dream. for a short part of my life that i can spend my time with them. but i have to face my parents every day and night. i hate them!!! just just say that allow me to explain and talk to them, giving me the best education. NO!! they dun., thay dun give talks, chat of even discussion. even if i explain wat they said is wrong, they dun give a damm. they just scold and scold. not giving me a chance to explain and hear me out. i explained, nicely, nicely. wat they say? 'i dun care'!!! hey.. what's the fucking problem with them??

if they dun care, then leave that so called 'educating' system. they are not even listening. just give me a slap or beat me up, then forget about the whole thing.

maybe god or some thing, luck? is playing on me. they noe that i feel like dying. and tried me out. but i just feel that 'omg, thks that i do not leave this world. i still have plenty of things that i did not do.'. but it all ends when i reach home. ends. i do not like them. i do not like to be with them. they have changed. i could not recognize them anymore.

btw, my dad is a drunkard. he drink more and more beer now. he is not in a clear mind. everytime. he is neva clear. NEVA!!! he just scream and shout, unwilling to hear people out and listen. he is sensitive and always mistook wat people says. and always result in arguments.

my mum just like to pretend to be fierce and lame. laugh at me when i being scolded. so? laugh all you want and choke on yr own tongue. suck up at my dad. they are just a pair of ugly hypocrite parents. hypocrites.